Old Wine in New Bottle

Hello.. I am Asha 25 years old and waiting for my verdict in the queue of Hell/Heaven (It is so different from what they show in movies cannot make out if it is Hell or Heaven by looking at the doors). I am here to confess my mistakes or good deeds and ask God why he killed me so early and so brutally :( I did pray every night before I went to bed, told him all my achievements and asked for forgiveness for my mistakes!! Oh yes yes.. I am dead and this is my Soul is waiting in queue. I always did what my parents asked me to do, what the society expected me to do and I was considered a role model to all the girls in my relatives and home town , but yet I am not alive and my soul feels the pain of my body which is stabbed brutally. My mother always told me I was Gods favorite child and no harm would happen to me. When I was 15 years old I was walking with my friends and two guys bullied us. My friend retarded, I told her to keep shut and we ran home. I told ...

Life is like a dish.. Though the main ingradiant is one it is never a full fledged dish without its small ingradiants like salt,pepper n so on.. Though they are less in quantity their absence will make the dish incompleate and taste less.. so is life.. it needs many relations like friends,parents and many more to be complete.

I knw its crazy.. But just go through this.. I was swiping out from my zone in office the other day.. N thinking that how surprizing would this seem to our old generation.. Showing a card opens a gate..? Then my thoughts went back to alibaba n the 40 thiefs story where just saying KULJA SIM SIM would open the door of khajana.. Was that a voice modulation password written by some programmer?suddenly i found my self relating many more things.. were all the wepons used in mahabharath are super advanced wepons which have capacity of conversion of energy from one form to another..? No doubt a high speed flamable element could produce fire in middle of its journey.. n if its travelling very fast.. -- the fire arrow? We have gases now which create artificial clouds.. was it used by arjuna to create rain fall in kandava vana dahanam?? -- the rain arrow??? Ohh... N Ravan s PUSHPAK VIMANA is more sofisticated and advanced when compared to our aeroplane or helecopter... Is it that we stated in...

Today.. I got up with a very bad mood.. thinking of so many things.. and with a bad head ache... Finished my routine things.. had brk fast n left early to get a medicine to my head ache.. Was standing at the corner of the Medical shop waiting for my medicine n thinking of office, things which are going wrong and hw can i correct them what can i do to improve my life.. n so onn 10011 questions and there ans with in myself.. as soon as the chemist arrived with the medicine.. i grabed it and started looking fr an auto to get to office.. Der was an auto standing right in front of the shop.. but the auto vala is looking at the other side of the auto waiting fr passingers.. i looked inside.. there was girl sitting.. she gave me a big smile and waved her hand saying hi.. as if we were frnds.. like a reflex arc a smile spread over my face and i waved back saying hi as if i met an old frnd of mine after long time.. I asked her if the auto was heading to DLF.. she said till JAYABHERI only.. mean...

Yesterday i was going through an article in front line.. in which statistics said there are 7.2 million abondend girl children in india with age group of 0-6.... i was shcoked to see the number and went in to read it.. There are millions of children abondened by their parents due to many reasons may it be poverty or anything.. this article stated that the children are abondoned cos they r GIRLS.. we r in 21st century.. we say.. showing off our automobiles.. technologies.. women attending offices.. n wat not.. but.. nothing has changed much.. we still look down at women.. If we observe in our own house.. hw educated n smart might be.. the mother should cook n the father should sit n eat... if not all relatives come into picture..as if some great mistake which can damage the entire world has been commited.. Its no different in diff countries.. wr ever u go its the same story.. some times i feel might be the darwins theory is workin with in the same species..(considering men n women to b...

It all starts at 8 in the morning… should I get ready to office… or might be I can take a leave today…Na Na.. I think I should go.. Then at ten in office.. what am I doing here.. Wasting my entire life on this box while all my frnds r craving 4 their careers.. No I should do something.. I will write cat. YES cat is the right option. Y cant I go for Gmat it looks like a better choice than cat. . if I do so I can finish my MBA in 1 yr with same credibility..If that is my choice do I really suit for management..?okay hw abt civils.. that’s also a g8 option.. damn it dint strike me till nw.. civils is a g8 option.. by the way wats todays date.. oh its 20th ten days to go for my sal..    k I think I should drop all this stupid ideas and just go with my job.. who will pay me every month with just a BTECH n that too biotech.. :D

I am waiting day n night to go n explore the beautiful world.. it comes up daily in my dreams with a Smokey smile on its face.. driving me to discover it at same time laughing at me for my incapability to achieve my desire.. What is stopping me?? The relations surrounding me??? Their expectations....?? The more the people around me restrict the more the desire to knw the world explodes.. I knw my responsibilities.. I am trying hard to come out of the toxic effect of the desire to achieve something... Do i really knw what i want??? Or am i jst dreaming of impossibles.... Some times i feel hope i was alone.. Might be i jst can think only about me n what i need.. Why is that every decision of mine on my own life effecting people around me.. N finally i am convinced to change my life according to them??? Is it a sacrifice or suiside of my dreams... I jst hope i never dream.. but when ever i make up my lil'l brain for this the more it dreams of achieving something.. Exploring the world ...