Old Wine in New Bottle

I am waiting day n night to go n explore the beautiful world.. it comes up daily in my dreams with a Smokey smile on its face.. driving me to discover it at same time laughing at me for my incapability to achieve my desire.. What is stopping me?? The relations surrounding me??? Their expectations....?? The more the people around me restrict the more the desire to knw the world explodes.. I knw my responsibilities.. I am trying hard to come out of the toxic effect of the desire to achieve something... Do i really knw what i want??? Or am i jst dreaming of impossibles.... Some times i feel hope i was alone.. Might be i jst can think only about me n what i need.. Why is that every decision of mine on my own life effecting people around me.. N finally i am convinced to change my life according to them??? Is it a sacrifice or suiside of my dreams... I jst hope i never dream.. but when ever i make up my lil'l brain for this the more it dreams of achieving something.. Exploring the world