Old Wine in New Bottle

I am waiting day n night to go n explore the beautiful world.. it comes up daily in my dreams with a Smokey smile on its face.. driving me to discover it at same time laughing at me for my incapability to achieve my desire.. What is stopping me?? The relations surrounding me??? Their expectations....?? The more the people around me restrict the more the desire to knw the world explodes.. I knw my responsibilities.. I am trying hard to come out of the toxic effect of the desire to achieve something... Do i really knw what i want??? Or am i jst dreaming of impossibles.... Some times i feel hope i was alone.. Might be i jst can think only about me n what i need.. Why is that every decision of mine on my own life effecting people around me.. N finally i am convinced to change my life according to them??? Is it a sacrifice or suiside of my dreams... I jst hope i never dream.. but when ever i make up my lil'l brain for this the more it dreams of achieving something.. Exploring the world

In my home my parents and relatives think I am sincere, ambitious, and what not....!! On the other hand my second family.. Deepi,Chintu,Himmi,Sadhu,Swetha and me. My second family i mean FAMILY OF FRIENDS thinks different .. Actually let me explain you the concept of SECOND FAMILY.. Its simple when we used to live with our parents we return frm school and get back home to OUR FAMILY.. But now as we don't live with our parents.. we get back to hostel where our SECOND FAMILY lives i.e room mates, friends in hostel.. waiting for you to return from classes.. Its an awesome feeling.. when we are late from college our parents get worried.. and they call up.. But ill tell u a better feeling than this awesome.. Whenever I am late cos of classes or will be in campus with some friends my SECOND FAMILY calls up asking me when am i going to be back..:) Now what my second family thinks about me.. LAZY IRRESPONSIBLE DUMB and what not.. and i enjoy when they keep telling me how childish i a

Today I was arranging my old stuff(college books) and suddenly a book caught my attension it Was "Let Us C" by YASHWANT KANETKAR.. It was in 2005 when i first herd the name "YASHWANT KANETKAR"... whats so special abt this name...??? :) he is auther of a book on C.. Thats it!!! no there is more.. here it starts.. First sem 2005 Aug we were all strongly requested(Forced) to buy this book... cos according to our lecturers it is useful for rest of our 4yrs.. !0A Every program we ever wrote has to be in "Let Us C" by YASHWANT KANETKAR. ;p thats only because our lecturers give programs from that book only.. You have a doubt? Go through YASHWANT KANETKAR's "Let Us C" ;p And the day of practicals finally arrived.. here goes the VIVA..Karthikeyan was our computer instructer in labs.. ips Ram Kumar's turn for VIVA.. Karthikeyan:Who is auther of C language?(he means who developed C Language) (with full booming confidence Ram answered) Ram:YASHWA

It was on 17/05/2009 .... they day i wish never existed... but it came.. n i had to leave my college.. my friends.. my room mates... it was 7 pm when i went to say good bye to one of my friends room(parul,tanvi,anubha n ankitha).. every one hugged me.. n none of us let loose.. cant let them go.. the moment i release them frm my arms.. i knw.. we both knw.. we r never gona be with each other any more.. that moment the only thing was hold them in my hands n in my eyes as long as possible.. tears didnt come out.. but.. sadness was creeping trough every nerve in my body.. for a moment every thin was blank... then i had to leave hostel by 7.30pm.. i was walkin through my campus towards main gate.. then my mobile started ringing.. it was my first yr room mate mona.. she just asked me "u forgot us(mona n bhavi)!!! dont u have to see us before u leave..!!" then it struck me hw can i forget them...!!!!! they r the ones i met when i first came to coll.. they are my very first friends..

“haven’t u ever thought of your future?” here comes the ever existing question from elders.. I’m about to finish my UG n when i met one of my uncles.. here it came again.. n with a tag line this time..”what did u learn in 4 yrs?” do i have my answer? every thing is so messed up.. some times i feel yes i have my answer i became a better person.. but thats not the answer expected by people with questions.. do they know that i am a better person now? what am i really going to do next..??? i don’t really want to grow old doing nothin.. or am i just making things complicated thinking too much..